Reflection on School in a Pandemic
Eva O’Leary published a piece in Time Magazine about life at Penn State during the pandemic. It reflects on the experiences of students mostly through photos. As a freshman at Penn State during the pandemic I have to say that the photos connect to me a lot. They show kids sitting in grass on Old Main with masks, or someone sitting in their bed alone, or signs of online worship from a church. I think that this shows some of what the culture is like at Penn State right now. Coming to college was something that I was always told would be some of the best years of my life. Stories of late-night study sessions and walks with friends, and ordering food at two in the morning always seemed enticing, but a lot of that was ruined by this pandemic. Everything felt so much more distant than I thought it would be. For 18 years I thought about what it would be like to go to college, and in none of my wildest dreams did I imagine this.
Coming to a new place is hard enough, but when you have to stand six feet away from everyone you meet it become infinitely harder. I remember feeling lonely the first few weeks. Classes online meant no faces and black squares. I could not meet my classmates and I could not say hi. Class discussion became a jumbled mess of sound and bad internet to the point where I did not want to try. Penn State did their best to change this situation. They held outdoor events like movies, had events on the Hub Lawn, but every time something happened all I heard from other people was how much better it usually was. I think that the way that these pictures in the article are taken show how people are trying to make the best out of a terrible situation, something that no one ever imagined. But in the photos, everyone seems a little sad, too. Sad that this happened at all, sad that they wasted a year of college staring at a screen.
In many ways I feel lucky to be able to have a freshman year at all – to be able to meet people, no matter how weird it is, and to be able to experience some of what it is like to be on my own. But I cannot say I am happy to have missed all of the things freshmen usually do. To have everyone hang out in dorm halls, to go to football games, and to just experience life on my own how I wanted to. While we work towards the future and look past the pandemic, everyone seems to be excited for what’s next, and I am trying to be. But in some ways, it feels like I am going to be a freshman again, like I am going to experience everything for the first time. If I am right, I hope that it is amazing, but I cannot imagine my life outside of that Zoom box just yet.