Whenever our class was down in high school my English teacher made us write a stream of consciousness for ten minutes. These were usually to get whatever was bringing us so down off of our minds. Lately, I’ve been in a kind of funk. I think. it may be a mix of seasonal depression, too much time in front of my laptop and my very first wave of homesickness. So here it is, my stream of consciousness:
Wow, hey kier. Life has been a crazy one. Last week you fell out with your best friend. Forgiveness is hard, but you forgave her. For the third time. Each time you fall out its because she does something with a boy you talk to, but this time it was different. She lied on you, threw you under the bus. Yet you forgave..stop being so forgiving. You miss your ex. Your COMM assignment you wrote about him and your rocky relationship but the relationship isn’t what you miss. It’s the friendship, the laughs, the way you could tell him everything and he never judged you. He knows everything about you, but you’re beginning to realize you know nothing about him. That’s why you drifted. That’s why it should stay that way. I’ve talked to my family a lot this week. Both my mom and my dad. My dad, who I still have a rocky relationship with, is starting to become more accepting of me as a person. However, he backtracks on his words (and his feelings about me) a lot so I do not know if this time it’s real or if I should stay to myself. Wow. This is getting too personal. And my ten minutes of writing time are up. Thanks for taking a step into my very all over the place brain. Wait before I go, I got TikTok famous this week on something I 
posted by accident. I am very much so embarrassed, but at the same time the fame has excited me hehe.
Keeping a diary is very good for the mind and soul. I haven’t written a stream of consciousness in so long and this has motivated me to do it a little more often than I do. I know that journaling/keeping a diary is something that a lot of people do not do these days, but just sitting and typing/writing/taking an audio message of your thoughts for just ten miners a day helps more than you think. Even in the ten minutes that I wrote here it got much more personal much quicker than what I had anticipated.
First of all, congrats on getting TikTok famous, even if it was for something that you didn’t mean to post! 82K, wow! It is so important not to keep all of the emotions we feel bottled up inside. Writing a stream of consciousness or in a dairy is a great way for people to express how they are feeling and confront those feelings. I don’t write a stream of consciousness a lot, but next time when I am feeling a mix of emotions, I will definitely have to try it.