Month: November 2021

As holidays are around the corner my motivation is starting to die slowly. The many midterms, projects, and finals approaching are making me feel so tired and worn out. I’m so happy this semester is almost over. Lately, I’ve been procrastinating so much by taking 3-hour naps in the middle of the day, something which I have to change because is not a healthy habit, especially in college, if I keep doing this I’m going to drown in my classes. I feel like a lot of people talk about this but not enough, and “adults” might think we as students are just being babies and can’t handle a little work, but in reality is so much more than that makes us feel a certain way.

I was talking about this the other day with my friends and they feel the same way, I feel like professors should think more about students’ mental health and I don’t want to generalize because there are many professors that care, but not too many. These past 3 weeks have been non-stop for me, with so much homework and assignments, and don’t get me wrong I like doing work, it keeps me centered but sometimes is just too much. I feel like many college students can relate to me when I say I’m exhausted, I need a break. This Thanksgiving break, I’m gonna try so hard to keep my mind out of school as much as I can, and be relaxed, although I don’t think is going to be possible because some of my professors left us to break homework, which I think it’s so wrong.

In conclusion, I’m not thriving at the moment, and that’s okay. I feel like this is completely normal, to feel burned out after  4 months of non-stop work. And I’m happy for the opportunity of studying at this university, I think the tiredness is a sign that I’m doing what I’m supposed to do and working hard every day to succeed at Penn State. What keeps me going is the support of my family giving me their good wishes and trusting me into succeeding in life. I miss them so much every day and I’m excited to see them during Christmas break. My birthday is also very soon so I’m excited about that, I’m so happy about it because I’m spending it back in Ecuador with my friends from home and family. Finally, there are good times ahead of me, and im thrilled, hopefully, time goes by faster so I can finally feel like myself again.

Finally, it’s November, and my favorite time has arrived! We’re so close to the end of the years and I’m in shock, how did this time pass so fast? I’m so excited about the holidays, I feel like they are going to be even more special because I’m coming home after a long time.  I have a friend studying in Canada and without us knowing were taking the same plane home, which is awesome because I was a little bit anxious about traveling alone again, I usually don’t mind doing it but for some reason, all of the negative thoughts about being alone in an airplane came to my head. 

My parents are so excited for me to come home, I miss them so much and I know I talk about this in every blog but I can’t say it enough, I’m also so excited about seeing my doggy before I came here I was scared I wasn’t gonna see he anymore because she’s old. I’m also excited to see my grandpa, he has been having a tough time because his son, my uncle, passed away because of covid, so my mom and I planned to surprise him, he doesn’t know I’m coming back and I know he loves me so much he will have a pleasant surprise from me. 

My friends don’t know that I’m coming either, and I plan to not tell anyone until I’m there, i know they must see it coming because the holidays are important and they must think I will be coming back for the celebrations. I can’t express enough how happy and blessed I feel right now, at this point in my life I feel like I’m so lucky for having so precious people in my life. I will miss my college friends though, they’ve been a great help and support in my life here.