I look at my phone
Missed Calls
Mom. (2)
I don’t watch the news because the only thing I see are caskets
and the world seems darker when I look at it through this small black box
The thought of metal in hands with a trigger finger that doesn’t think twice
Is enough to make me forget how to love.
I don’t like to look at the victims
Their faces burned and scarred into my head
The images
keep me suffocated like I’m in a burning car
but
I get to come out of my burning car alive.
Hands with a trigger finger that doesn’t think twice.
Missed Calls.
Mom. (3)
“Know where your exits are. I can’t always keep you safe”
Her voice sounds frantic,
My mom always watches the news.
Good guy. White guy.
Country music fan.
White guy.
Missed Calls.
Mom. (4)
“It could have been you”.
Hands with a trigger finger that doesn’t think twice.
Missed Calls
Mom.
I realize why we turn on the news
When
it
isn’t
new
Have you ever thought about what if it was you?
Or someone you knew?
Gunshots. Good guy. White guy.
Video footage online.
I do not want to know about the man with the trigger finger that didn’t think twice.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.