When I was four, my family took a trip to the exotic Cayman Islands. I remember eating Oreo O’s and applesauce at the kitchen table. I remember trying to feed the birds with white bread just to come home in the evening and see the slices crawling with ants. Most vividly, I can remember the day that my dad took me swimming with stingrays. My grandparents waited with my mom and brother on the open deck of a boat as my dad and I entered the crystal clear blue water teaming with slithery creatures. I remember gripping my dad with all my might so that he wouldn’t drop me. I can almost hear myself let out a scream to wake the dead when I had decided I had had enough.
I remember it all so clearly. But do I really?
In class we discussed how people are completely capable of making up their memories without even knowing it, and how the accuracy of our own memories is usually very faulty. After conducting a little more research on the matter, I came across this article, which highlighted the phenomena of false memory even in those with superior memory stores. Even in those with exceptional memories (I’m taking about those who can remember everything that happened on any date you ask them about), people frequently confused events and ideas that they had heard in passing with things that had actually happened to them. The conclusion to the study conducted in the article claimed that all people construct memories in the same way, so that even those with exceptional recall are prone to making errors.
While it is possible that my memories from the vacation are true, I actually assume that my memories have been lost due to infantile amnesia. While you are young, you experience changes in brain structure. Your encoding (getting information into your memory system), storage (retaining information), and retrieval (getting information out of memory) processes also develop. This makes it extremely difficult for people to recall information from when they are younger, especially under the age of 4.
And if my original memories have indeed been lost, I’m going to bet that I have reconstructed and falsely imagined many of the memories that I have based on what I have been told by others. This is called “source amnesia,” where we don’t know where our memory is coming from yet can imagine an instance perfectly. It could also be due to “misinformation and imagination effects,” where people’s memories can be influenced by misinformation, such as stories and images that people see and hear after the occurrence.
In this interesting article, memory construction is detailed. It explains how that even if you are certain that something has occurred, you should be as skeptical with yourself as you should be with someone else because of the faulty tendencies of the brain. If a memory was encoded improperly and then recalled incorrectly later on, that memory will stick with you incorrectly and be more likely to influence false memories in the future.
So can I actually remember Oreo O’s and swimming with the stingrays? There is no way of telling if a memory is true or false. I’m going to bet that my brain is playing tricks on me—but as the memories are pretty sweet, I don’t mind fooling myself.